Arashi Hiatus

Almost a month since Arashi announcement. I still feel hurt and sad. But I do can accept and understand their decision. Until now I still can watch Untitled Concert again. Before the announcement I always watch Untitled at least once every week. I always play Mikan again and again every day. But now I can't. I really like Untitled before, I can say the most Arashi album and concert that I like is Untitled. But now I not have courage to listen and watch Untitled. After the announcement, every thing that I feel and I question get answer and it hurt so much. I always wondering why narration in every section in the concert like a goodbye messages, feel sad. I often skip this part.
I can't live without Arashi music, now I just watch and listen music before 2017. I still out of blue feel sad and cry if I remember Arashi hiatus.
I hope I can be better and smile again like Arashi wish.